I took her to the doctor's today and she is down another 2 ounces. This puts her one ounce shy of being down an entire pound since she was born. This has me very sad. I cried at her appointment. I know it's not my fault, I just feel bad for her and I want to fix it. Plus, ya know, after being infertile for almost 10 years I didn't need any help feeling like I wasn't 'woman enough.' Now I have crappy milk supply.... so first I can't make a baby and then I can't feed a baby? That is really frustrating.
I know there are ways to increase milk supply and I am trying them. However, I also have to deal with the fact that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome and that can effect milk supply because it messes with all your hormones. So it may just be that I am simply unable to nurse. But I'm giving it my best. I'm just sad about it is all.
Really, that's been consuming my world - well, that and staring at my little princess. She is such a doll. See?
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She's adorable! And she looks content. P.S. Is your Target list up to date? Santa may send something. :-).
:-( You're a great mommy, and you love your little one to pieces. I know, in the middle of it all it feels like you're failing her and there's nothing I can say that would take away all the hard times....bleah. that's all I got. I will say again that I can't wait for chicken nugget days. I love them as babies, but the first months of feedings are ROUGH! Argh.
Women, you have a clone!!! SO so cute. Don't worry eventually everything rights it self whether you bottle feed or nurse. (I didn't make enough milk for my #1...similar to the feeding an ant situation you mentioned.)
You are still an amazing women, because you nurture, love beyond capacity, and are the glue that keeps a family together! Sounds women enough for me. ;)
I'm so sorry life is being tough on you. I know that you know that you shouldn't feel like you are failing in any way - but maybe you need to hear it one more time. You're a good Mommy. She's lucky to have you. You guys will be OK. (But also - that totally sucks. Life bites. Why can't things just work out the way you want for ONCE! and all that empathy stuff.)
I'm sorry that you're so frustrated. You are a good mommy, even if your body doesn't want to cooperate. I know lots of women who couldn't produce enough milk, so you're not alone! I know you'll do whatever it takes to ensure that she gets her fill. Wish I was there to comfort you and help.
She is SO cute! I'm sorry about the milk thing--it does happen and it doesn't mean by ANY means that you're a bad mom!!
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